i really think my brain is out of practice.
i just have a hard time thinking and communicating well these days.
my brain doesn't seem to give me words to express what i feel or think very quickly...and it's pretty frustrating. i think i've always been a pretty good listener, and that hasn't changed much...but what takes most people like a minute to take in, think about, and respond....takes me, well, ...a LOT longer.
....oh, and by the time i'm ready to talk about it, or have thought through a response, everyone else has moved on. but even if the conversation returns, i've usually forgotton my thoughts. (VERY bad short-term memory)
i don't think i've realized until lately how out of practice my brain is. my mind has been racing about heavy, life-changing things lately, and i'm beginning to feel overwhelmed. well, i don't know if that's the right word for it. my brain just constantly feels FULL.
hmm... i think i could probably illustrate this better than can explain it...(easier to do that if i were blogging with a pen and paper)
i think i just have so many issues that i need to engage...but in the meantime, they're just stuck racing in my brain (really fast, usually)...and it seems like more new ideas/convictions keep being stuffed in there on top of it all... and picking and choosing which ones to focus on first can be staggering to me.
my day-to-day life is spent communicating VERY simply, and doing simple things (though mostly in multi-task form), but it's definitely busy, tiring, and emotionally draining. so usually, when i have down-time, i'm too tired to think about the overflowing heavy issues in my brain....though i DESPERATELY want to.
anyway, just been thinking about thinking about thinking about thinking lately.
:)
jo
...and funny (and interesting) that this is what i post right after our 2 incredible, relaxing beach vacations. something else to think about, i guess. ;)
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6 comments:
I can totally relate to all of that. I'm so used to talking to little people that when I have a conversation with an adult I feel...unprepared I guess. I also have a hard time sorting out my thoughts. I keep thinking "o.k. I'll think about that when the kids go to bed, but by then who wants to think? :) The more Mom's I talk to, the more I realize this is a pretty common thing for this time of life. In other words, we're all crazy!
Jo,
I feel the same way. I have SOOO much on my mind these days- many of which are probably on yours. I have so much to think through, but am having an extremely hard time communicating it. Maybe becuase I'm still trying to sort through it all, or maybe because I'm afraid I'll sound ignorant if I try to talk to about it. Anyway, just know that you're not alone. All that matters is that you're thinking. We'll talk soon and maybe sort through this stuff together. Have a good night!
It's the thinking part that's important right now, the communicating your thoughts part will come when it needs to. And I think you're a great communicator anyway!!!! =) Your brain is working just fine, don't worry. Eventually everything will stop swirling and it'll slowly drift to the surface when it needs to. It's wise to not always voice your thoughts before they're fully-hatched, you'll always mean exactly what you say instead of saying things you don't mean. =)
Well, I can't say I relate to that right now because I am out on summer vacation. However, I do sympathize! I know we haven't really gotten to know eachother well yet, but if you need someone to listen to your rambling confusion, I'll be glad to listen!
glad to find yalls Blog, Jo and Joey. as far as this post goes, I know exactly what you are talking about. I blame it on the placenta, that is I feel when it left my body after Lilliana so did much of my built up knowledge and memory. I feel like I am out of it most of the day these days and I am still waiting for things to get back to normal. :) Well see.
Melody
hey sweetie, THINK ABOUT IT TOMORROW!!!!it works!!!but you are an awesome communicater even if you dont feel like you are..you have and unusually BUSY life ..that does it too you know!!!
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